Monday, March 30, 2009

Disappointed in Devon

So, I'm really disappointed with Devon. I was going to write about this this morning; however I took a shower and got ready instead. So last night, I learned that Devon told Sarah that he wants to date her. Of course, she said no because she's not his type. He's being hypocritical and doing a double standard because he told me that he wouldn't date anyone until he is going to get his temple recommend. I can understand why he did that but still. He needs to stand up to his principles. That's what I did when I didn't back down about my health food and trying to avoid thing which are bad in food. If he doesn't want to date me, he needed to say that when he first talked to me instead of giving an excuse.

Then, Sarah said he's not going to speak to me because I confronted him about giving me back my key to my car. Rhea said it's not a very good idea for Devon to drive my car because he doesn't have car insurance. So if he got into an accident, my insurance would have to pay for it. Plus, he has all kinds of garbage in the back of my car. If one borrows my car, one should keep it clean. I let him borrow it because he didn't have a car. However, he did use it when Sarah and he went to the mall yesterday. They could have used Sarah's car instead.

So, I'm very disappointed in him by the way he has treated me so far. If he doesn't talk to me because I stood up to him, I'll be even more disappointed in him. Well, luckily my crush is really waning. It's a lot smaller than it was a week ago. Everything seemed to be fine with our friendship until he and I noticed that I had a crush on him. Then everything went downhill from there because he kept on wanting me to change my eating habits. Sarah, Devon, and Mary Lu don't trust my sources with my health foods. However, I trust my sources more than I trust Devon because of the way he treated me.

It seems like when I really like someone and put my full trust in them, I get hurt. I found that out with my Evil dojo and Uncle Rich. Now, that happened a little with Devon. However, that didn't happen with Sensei Villa, Brother Adams, Tony, Andrey, and Dr. Cough. I know that I have cried over Andrey, but he has treated me with respect and hasn't done anything to intentionally hurt me. The people who have betrayed my trust care more about themselves and don't care about other people's feelings. This is why I have to rely on the Spirit so much because I cannot tell what are people's intentions right off the bat. I pay attention how they treat me and if they do anything screwy or not. Uncle Rich and the Evil dojo did many screwy things that didn't make sense until I saw their intentions. I have to look for warning flags and pay attention how I feel about these people. Devon has really sprung some warning flags on himself by the way he has treated me last week. That's why I don't trust him that much anymore until he can prove otherwise.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

To Devon

Hi Devon. I really hope you read this. I was thinking about deleting my last two entries so you wouldn't see them. However, I don't feel like doing that because I didn't need to when I edited my entries for certain people. I'm just letting them stand. You know that I'm really open about everything. So, on this blog I'm open on it too. However, I did write an entry last night which I put on my private blog because it was about what you said yesterday and my feelings about it. I'm sorry that I'm socially awkward. I'm sorry if I made you feel awkward too. Anyway, I'm going to to think about you that much anymore. I'm working at by thinking about other things and trying to get rid of these feelings. I don't know if they will go away completely but I'm going to try. I'm not going to speak to you about my crush anymore. I just want a normal friendship like I had with my best friend in high school.

Ok, now about health foods. Like I said, first read about "My evidences for being treated" that I made about being treated by a chiropractor neurologist. I know that doesn't say anything about eating healthy food. It's just I want you to see that they are NOT quack doctors!!! They know what they are doing and talking about. I want you to gain the trust of chiropractors in general. I trust my chiropractor completely because like I said, I haven't seen any warning flags with him. However, I do see some potential warning flags with you. Those flags are not necessarily read however. Anyways, I tend to trust what any chiropractor writes about because of my experience with my chiropractor.

You have to present some strong evidence and information for me to stop buying health foods because right now, I have some very strong evidence. I'm getting this information from all kinds of sources. I think if you trust chiropractors, I think you'll change your opinion. However if you still don't trust them, look at my other sources. I don't have time right now to post all of the information about what I have read, but I'll do that soon. You, Mary Lu, and Sarah cannot change my mind with just your opinions. I cannot do that all of you haven't researched about it. I'm telling you that you have to read my evidence and come up with some of your evidence on your own. For right now, just go through my blog and read about my experiences with my own chiropractor and the links I have put up. If you don't want to do this, that's fine. Just don't try convince me to stop buying my health foods. Right now, the things that you are saying is only hurting you. Enzymes to denature when they are heated up. I learned this in Bio 101. That's why people cannot have a really high fever. CO2 isn't bad for your skin. I don't know where you heard that from. Anyways, I'm sorry that I'm being really direct with you. Like I said, my communication skills are better in writing than speaking.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Stupid Crush

Oh Why do I really like Devon??? Ugg. I didn't see him today, so I miss him. I sound so pathetic. I don't remember being like this with Andrey. When I came home last night, I was thankful that he came over to visit. When Sarah, Devon, and I were going through my clothes, Devon had some funny facial expressions. I loved it. He makes me laugh and happy. I'm always smiling when I'm around him. I trust him almost completely. I'm very happy that he's staying and is going to school in the fall to get his masters in Logistics. I'm not suppose to like him because it would probably never work out with us. Plus, he still needs to get his temple recommend. He's not even interested in me. Ack! Whenever I get to know him more, I like him even more. Stupid crush. I just never had these strong of feelings for a guy before. I only remember having strong feelings like this for Tony in eighth grade. I wish Devon could read this.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Feelings for Guys

Hi. I have something crazy to tell you. I have feelings for a guy. I can't believe it!! His name is Devon and is a normal, typical guy. I really, really like him. What's amazing is that Mary Lu, my housemate noticed I liked him a couple weeks ago. Last night, he took me on short walk and told me that he noticed signs that I wanted more than a friendship. He said that he wasn't ready for a relationship yet because he wanted to get his temple recommend first. I said that I knew that. We are both cool with it. The thought didn't even cross my mind to date him before he talked to me about it. If I really wanted to date him, our little talk would have hurt me. However, I don't know if it would even work because we both are very different from each other. He's your typical guy who works in construction, loves cars, and fixes cars. Maybe, I really like him because he and my dad has a lot in common. He loves to tease and harass me, which my dad also does. He loves kids, very open about his past, funny, and hugs us whenever he leaves the apartment. However, he does watch rated R movies, has had a very dark past, drinks Mountain Dew more than my brother, and eats very unhealthy. I want a guy who's very strong in the church and is educated just as much or even more than me. He has a year left to go to school, but he isn't right now because he doesn't like it.

I've been very open and trusting with him. I think I think him more of an older brother than a person who I can date. Like I said, I don't know if it will even work if we date. I can't even entertain that idea that much. So, it's better to think of him as an older brother. I've never had an older brother or sister in my life because I'm the oldest in my family. He's ten years older than I am. Mary Lu says that I should get rid of those special feelings that I have for him by focusing on the bad things he does so I will stop liking him. I'm not going to do that. I talked to my sister about it and she said that I'm fine. I can still flirt and be myself around him. I've always said that I don't even know how to flirt but Mary Lu said that I do.

Yesterday, I didn't even know that I had feelings for him until today. I've been listening to my feelings when I'm around and think about him. They are pretty special. However, one gets a different types of feelings with different types of people. I know that my feelings for me aren't you typical feelings. It's just really weird because I've never really had feelings for your typical guy. He's not even good looking. I just think that the whole thing is crazy.

However, it doesn't surprise me that I really like a guy. I meet those kind of guys all over the place. I had my first crush on Tony in eighth grade. Eventually, those feelings went away as we became best friends. I remember putting my arm around him once and he asked my why I was doing that. I couldn't have acted on my feelings anyway because I was too young to date. My second crush was with Tyler. I met him at Youth Conference and spend alot of time with him during that time. I remember sitting on the grass and talking with him during the dance which was outside. We didn't spend time with each other after that because we lived in different towns. The last information I heard about him was the he turned away from the church and turned gay.

I've always been interested in Soren who lives in Spokane. He was my home teacher and the Elder Quorum president. However, I never let him know of my interest in him because I'm very old fashioned. It's better for the guy to ask the girl on a date and let her know of his intentions instead of the other way around. At first, I didn't have feelings for Andrey when we started dating. They developed over time. We still have feelings for each other because we love to talk and be with each other. I love going to the movies with him. Plus, we like to hold hands even though we are not dating. I need to call him because our last conversation ended on a sour note and that was before I left Spokane.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Video games

Ack!! I need to do this earlier during the day. I usually forget about blogging and reading in my scriptures until it's bed time. I could do it during the day because I waste so much time on the internet. I've been spending so much time on this gametrailers watching video reviews for video games. I really like this site because it has a lot more video reviews than gamespot.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


I found a website that had all the names of MSG, there are a lot of them.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

My Questions

This is to my chiropractor in Spokane.

Hi Dr. Cough,

Thanks for telling me about that Pacific Botanicals website. Hopefully, I'll find a way to get those Superfood ingredients.

I'm so glad I have your e-mail. Now, I can write all of my questions and you can answer them when you aren't busy. The last couple times I called you were busy, so I don't know when is a good time to call you. I'm going to number my questions so you can answer them easier. Plus, it's my way of letting you know that you didn't skip any questions. I've noticed that many people like to skip some questions when I write to them.

1. In your own words, tell me how homeopathy works. You know I'm taking Total Mercury supplement for my acne. I'm just wondering how four drops three times a day works because it's so tiny!

2. Can I trust bread that's baked at grocery stores that they don't have anything hydrogenated? Or should I not even trust them at all to be safe?

3. What do you personally do to make sure that the food you order doesn't contain any crap when you go to restaurants?

4. You know that I'm taking Super EPA. What should I do when that runs out because it's giving me the essential fatty acids for my body? I was reading that the algae in the Superfood supplement contain Omega 3 fatty acids. Would there be enough Omega 3 when I make and take Superfood? What I'm trying to say is algae the best way to get EPA, GLA, and DHA?

5. You know that website that you pointed me to during our first discussion about Superfood. Well, I forgot its address. When I was looking around, I thought up a test for you. I want to test your abilities. Last winter, I had a research assignment for my botany class. I researched about the Madagascar Periwinkle and its alkaloid vincristine. Now, I want you to test if vincristine is really good, good, neutral, bad, or really bad for my body. I don’t want you to use the internet to research about it because that will give you the answer. I know the correct answer because of my research. Of course, you don’t have to do this if you want too. However, I thought that this might be fun for you and me.

6. Which type of milk should I drink? I usually drink 2%. After reading that website you sent me to read about sugar, it said that pasteurized milk was bad and soy milk was even worse. Do you agree with that? Is it healthier to buy fresh milk?

7. Do you recommend chewing gum? From my research, I’ve read its bad for you especially the kind that has Aspartame. Is it OK to chew gum that has sugar in it or is that bad for my teeth? I like to chew gum because I get these craving to have something sweet. So, I eat something sweet or chew gum to get rid of them. Are sweet cravings natural?

8. How come my body doesn’t like Sunflower seeds? It used to like them but now they give me heartburn when I eat a small amount.

9. How long does that magnet usually last people that I bought from you? Mine is all the way cracked. I taped it so it will hold together. I thought that this magnet would be a little sturdier because one has to wear it every day. I’ve only had it for five months and now it’s falling apart on me.

10. Now my final question, I want to lose weight. I want to get rid of the extra fat on my body. I’ve been eating much healthier than I have in the past. Now, I want to lose some pounds and look better in the mirror. I know it takes diet and exercise. I was talking with my roommate. She said it’s all about counting calories. We figured out that if I eat 1600 to 1700 calories every day, I’ll lose weight. I’m just hoping that it will be enough calories because I’m not going to get anything that has any artificial sweeteners which cut down calories. I’m going to keep avoiding the foods that are bad for me. Is that a good way to lose weight? Is that amount of calories good for my body? I heard that counting calories doesn’t work, but my roommate says it does.

I’d be totally grateful if you answer all of my questions. Some of them have been in my head for months. I have all of them because I’m becoming obsessed with my health. Thus, I’m becoming a health nut. :)



Counting Calories

Right now it's Wednesday night. I'm screwed up my sleep schedule by taking a three hour nap today. I was tired from my six hours of sleep last night and wanted to be fresh for my O-chem test. I think I did really well on it. I wanted to give myself five hours to work on it. However, I got at the testing center at 6:30 and worked for 3 1/2 hours. I was a little rushed at the end and couldn't check all of my work; however, I hardly to change my answers when I do check my tests. I feel better about it than last test. This time, I took it in the music room instead the main room. I don't like the main room because it's really big and quiet. I don't like it because I always need to have music playing. It helps me concentrate. I always listen to my I-Pod when doing my homework. The music room plays classical and new age music. Some of it is really boring, but it much better than nothing. Some of the music I would listen to and put on my I-Pod. I even heard a song from Yanni.

I'm becoming a health nut. I was talking to Sarah about me avoiding all kinds of things which are in foods. She doesn't really agree why I do it because she hasn't put the hours of research I've put into. She was saying things that I disagreed with. I confronted her a little. I don't like to say someone is wrong if it's debatable. The things that I'm avoiding is debatable to the normal public. It's a very conservative view. However, I feel better about avoiding these types of things because of all the research I've done. I just want to be more healthy.

I talked about my weight to Sarah. I don't know how to lose weight at all. She was saying that if I count my calories, I can lose weight. She's been counting calories since she was a kid. She said that she can help me count my calories and exercise together. She got all excited. I want to lose weight because I don't like how look in the mirror. I know that's not a good indicator. However, I've been noticing that depositing fat on my stomach, sides, and back. I used to never have fat on my sides. It's been bothering me when I sleep because I can feel it pull on me when I sleep in my normal position. Because of the fat, I've changed my position. Probably, it better for my back to sleep in the position I sleep in now because it's not twisted. Anyways, I just don't like the tugging on my sides and stomach. It's really uncomfortable. It would be so cool if I lose this extra fat and drop around 170's. I know that's a big hefty goal. I don't know if that's even possible. I'm going to try.

So, I was doing some research if counting calories is the way to go. As I was researching, I found this calculator. I'm going to shoot for 1600 to 1700 calories. I don't know how I will do. I found this really good article about Artificial Sweeteners. Sarah is all about these sweeteners. So, probably it's easier for her to cut the calories than it would for be because I'm avoiding that stuff like the plague. I know that I'm still eating a little MSG and partially hydrogenated foods every day. I'm trying to eat all of that stuff up. I'm only have one chimichanga left which has something hydrogenated. This is a good overview why I avoid things in foods. I just looked in the refrigerator. I need to talk to my roommates because I hardly have any food in there and need to go shopping. However, they are taking up some of my space in the fridge.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

8 hours of O-chem

I'm back at home. The internet was fixed yesterday. I don't know if anyone came to the apartment to fix it though. Well, I've done around eight hours of O-chem today. I feel much better about the test now. I know all the reactions and how they work. I like studying with Trevor. He's really nice. It's nice to study with someone because we can answer each others questions. He's six years older than me, that means he's 28 years old. Well, I need to do my search questions for my Book of Mormon class tonight before I go to bed. I wish I didn't have to do them because I would go to bed right now.

Monday, March 02, 2009

O-chem test and the internet

Elizabeth is going to study some more of O-chem. I have a test on Wednesday. Pretty nervous about it. It's because he will give us problems that we haven't seen before. We are suppose to have all the knowledge to work through them. Plus, it's going to be at least three hours long. Why???? It's probably going to take me four to five hours. I'm going to be fried!!!! That's too long! :(

Right now, I'm at BYU campus typing this in the Spencer W. Kimball Tower (SWKT) because the internet is down. I'm here because the internet went down since Saturday night. That's why I didn't write on Sunday. Today, I called the internet provider for my apartment so they could come and fix it. I'm also here to print some things off for O-chem. It doesn't help that Sarah's printer at home is out of black ink and paper. I offered to buy ink and paper, but she declined.

I think that my sleep schedule is getting to be normal again. The last three nights, I've been going to bed around eight to 10 P.M. I'm very happy. I'm just hoping that I can keep it that way.